Thoughts for my dear friend

I have a friend who could use some thoughts / prayers.. She's detoxing on her own from drugs.. Doing well and I'm proud of her.. I don't know how someone could do that. Anyhow, pray for strength and wisdom, I'll take it from there.

Also.. I feel like though life couldn't be going along much better.. I sort of have my priorities out of order. I need to focus on me.. It's too easy for me to forget about what I need, when I have a friend in need.. I need to find balance in my life. Though if I lost everything for a friend, I think it would be worth it.

You MG people are awesome. I'm still lucky I found this site. Emma, Sue, Mary, Dave, David, Laura.. I love you guys.. My life is better because of you. Mims, sorry I can't call you out, you're awesome. Tim MA, Great site, awesome humor.... Can I borrow the Viper? Thank, thank, thank (spank) you. LOL

Z, you shovel for far too little money. You've got time to learn though. Keep it real. :cool

 

Hi Pax, The Prayer Warriors are on duty for your friend. And for you . You may need a few to help you get things back in order. Time, my friend, time.. Yeah, she has a long rough road ahead of her, and I think with you standing by her, she will make it.

You do have to get your life organized. Take time for you. Hang in there, take your time, my friend.

 

Any time Pax, good thoughts and prayers to you and your friend.

:major

 

Pax, trust me the love goes right back at cha 10 fold :heart:grouphug.You and your friend can bank on the prayers and the warriors:strong:strong as well as positive thoughts:cloud9 to be sent your way from Florida.Just make sure you stay focused on you as well.
PM me if you need anything.
BT

 

Sending best wishes and healing thoughts to your friend during her darkest hours.
You a good fella, Pax, one of many here, and I pray that you both get through this and come out the other side safe and well.
Both of you be strong and know that my family and I are praying for your friend to receive the spiritual guidance and support to beat this and for you to continue to find the inner strength to help keep your friend on the long and arduous road to a full recovery.
Anytime you want to spout off, you know that at Geek Central there's many willing ears here to listen.
Love and good health to you both.

 

Thoughts, prayers and positive energy, going out to you and your friend. She definitely has the wisdom and with a friend like you behind her - she will do fine

Cheers..

 

I'm not much for prayer anymore, but any positive energy and thoughts I can spare are coming your friend's way as quickly as I can send them. Doing it on her own is hard enough, actually doing well on her own is very impressive.

Try to remember, you will not be able to help her if you burn yourself out. You have to recharge, regroup, and get your own rest, or you won't be able to be there for her when she really needs you. Obviously don't abandon her, but do try to make sure that you get your own time and whatever help you might need. Your friend is lucky to have you... make sure you take care of yourself.

And not only so you can be continue to be there for her, but so you can get yourself to a better place as well. You deserve it.

 

Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

 

Hmm, detox at home eh? I don't know which substance(s) they are trying to kick but some medical help could go a long way. Good luck.

 

Yeah GL on the detox and you need to also worry about yourself. I don't know what kind of "detox" your friend is doing drugs or alch or pills or whatever. It wont be easy I know a few that did it. They got super sick and when someone is an addict and there brain and body is telling them you can get over being sick if you just go buy more drugs. Thats the big point of thinking and not doing them. GL again.

 

Good luck Pax. You guys are gonna have to be strong if she's trying to beat physical dependance without pro help. I hpoe you can handle that.

 

Hey Pax, good thoughts, best wishes and prayers to you and your friend. Yeah, you do need to look after yourself if you want to look after others. A lesson which I had to learn myself years ago. At times like these, just being a loyal friend that is there for you, is one of the best supports that can happen.

 

Never been much of a prayer, but for a cause like this, will add my best efforts.
Hope you and your friend get well.

 

It's odd to sit across the table from someone while they talk all day about something you don't know anything about, and think that you could make a difference to them. It's going to be a long road for my friend.

I don't want to get into the specifics of things, because I'm trustworthy to her, and I don't want to start doubting that about myself. I spent a lot of time with her yesterday. We went to brunch & I helped her fix some things around her place. She just doesn't have any luck at all. She found out over the weekend that when her lease is up on the 31st of March, her landlord probably isn't going to let her renew it.

That means little though, she's got places she can go, she needs to focus on cleaning up, if that's what she wants to do. I realize, and she probably realizes that it would be easier to do with professional help... But I think she's trying it on her own, to show herself that she's not as lost as she thinks she is. That's my thought anyhow.

I kept telling her yesterday.. I don't know any part of what you're feeling, what you've lived through, or the effects of any of this.. But I don't want you thinking you're alone through it. You call me any time you need me. My door is never locked, if you need to get away, I've got room for you to land, and regroup.

I think she's going to do it. I'm proud of her, and I Have faith in her. I'm strong enough to help however it comes up.. And there's not an attraction element that would have me sugar coating things.

Oh, to top off the day.. I left her house at about 7:30 and went to a bar that my brother, his wife & a bunch of other people where at. I drove some of them home, and ended up parking in a bad spot.. got myself a nice $110 fine LOL I'm the bad guy!

 

Oh, Pax, sounds like you need a few :strong :strong :strong too. A ticket to top off the day! OUCH!

If she is going to go this alone, it will be hard, for sure, but I do hope she seeks some professional help, Pax. That is some rough stuff to get off of, and I think a little help would be a great help to her. JMO, now.

Like Mimsy said, if you get burned out, you aren't going to be much help to her. She is going to need all the help she can get.. :strong :strong :strong to both of you

 

As far as medical help here in the US, unless your rich there is no medical help. People have been labeled criminals rather then being sick.
Most people who start drugs to begin with is because of real medical symptoms. Mental conditions they're not even aware of, only that taking or drinking (liquor is a drug) something may lesson the affects or quiet the voices.

In Jan I lost my step son. He was 42 and spent a majority of those years taking prescription drugs (so called legal drugs) that due far more damage then anything you can buy on the streets. His kidneys were so damaged he laid down new years eve, went to sleep and was gone.

She is lucky to have a friend in you Pax. Just being there can be a life saver. Stay strong.

 

If she didn't want to change, I wouldn't spend much time with her, drugs just aren't my thing. Even drinking. I'm good for a ride home, but if I have to sit all night with people while they drink, and watch them get more and more intoxicated and and annoying, I'd rather not.

From what she's told me, if she's not at rock bottom, someone better take her shovel. I'm there for her, I want her to know she's not in it alone.. But at the same time, I won't stand by and watch her fail, when she's telling me she doesn't want to. I've told her I'm not beyond going "Black Snake Moan" on her.

I'll do anything for my friends. I'm not worried about me anymore. After spending the day with her yesterday, I have a very good idea about what she needs, and I know I'm capable of giving that to her.

I think I'm one of the only people around her who offer her an out. Without me, she'd be like a bartender who was trying not to drink.. or something like that.

I hope it goes well. I'm proud of her, and if those are the only 4 words I speak / text her in a day, they're 4 words she gets from me, daily.

Darlene is right, completely. Though it saddens me to read about your step son, I'm scared to death for my friend. We had plans the other night, and I guess she broke her phone somehow.. The plans fell through by default, and it was 3 days before I heard from her again. I gave her crap for it, but only to let her know that it scared me, I didn't know what could have happened, and that I didn't care if she had to give my number to someone, if it happened again, I just needed to know she was alive and safe.

Maybe this thread is my way of recharging. I'm detached from this girl emotionally... well physically. If I didn't like her at all, I wouldn't be helping I guess. There's no interest in a relationship I mean. I'm not "cleaning her up" to make her better for me. I'm helping her because she's a friend, and I can.

I might not have a lot of friends.. But the ones I do have, I give everything to.

There are a lot of things on my mind that I don't know how to communicate. But lately, even yesterday, a day of way ups, and way downs.. Best day in a long time. I am doing well with myself, keeping myself charged, and full of energy. I'm ready to drop whatever I have to, if something should come up. I can't make a mistake and miss sleep, or a meal, and be unreliable. That's one little worry I have. But so far, so good.

I'm not worried about me anymore. After the day I had with my friend, my problems are totally manageable. Anyhow, I'll do some more thinking & see what else I can find a way to communicate.

Thanks for all the support.

 

Then you're not detached, now are you? You care about your friend because she is your friend, and because you are her friend, that's the only reason you need. This is what friends do. All the fun and pleasant times are bonuses and at the same time building blocks leading up to situations like these.

Come back any time and recharge as much as you need to. Your friend needs you, and you need to keep yourself in the kind of shape that if it's ever needed, you can carry it all.

I have a friend who has bulimia and early in our friendship, she relapsed very badly into her bad eating habits. I tried to tactfully bring it up several times, and was stone walled, often in mean and hurtful ways.

The 7th or 8th time I'd had enough, backed her into a metaphorical corner and told her, "This is what happens if you have friends. You are destroying yourself, and you need help. If you don't like hearing that, then you shouldn't have friends. You should have selfish party buddies who don't give a shit about you and your health, and who won't even notice what you're doing to yourself. If you want to have a friend, then you take the good with the bad, and that means me telling you to your face that you need help."

She exploded. She was furious. She said some things that hurt me deeply, and I was miserable and regretted opening my big mouth in the first place.

Three weeks later she apologized and thanked me for forcing her to the therapist. I told her not to worry about it, its a part of being friends... we do painful things for each other because we know and trust that our friends will return the favor but more importantly, because we are friends, and this is a part of the deal.

Your friend is lucky, Pax. She has you.

 

Good luck to your friend and to yourself, Pax. Sounds like you're doing everything right for her, as well as taking a bit of time for yourself, which is the way it needs to be done. You don't do her or yourself any good if you run yourself ragged trying to take care of her. The fact that she is kicking it on her own speaks volumes about her, and I wish her all the best. It's not easy, but when it's finally done there is a HUGE sense of accomplishment, and the rest of the crappy luck finally starts to turn with it as well.

 

Hey PAX much Karma and good thoughts coming your way.

Real friends are very precious and rare commodities in today's world so they need to be nurtured.

I have been paying for an addiction problem for the last 10 years (it has been documented on here ) and the number of true friends who stepped up to the plate for me can be counted on one hand,I count myself truly lucky to have such people.

I had all the trappings of the good life but descended into the dark recesses of alcohol abuse which in turn destroyed my life my health and my self respect,

I had 2 or 3 good friends who stood by me who gave me support in a dark time.

I am now mentally if not physically recovered thanks to those friends.

Never underestimate the value if a true friend.

So as difficult as it may seem sometimes stand up and be counted, you will never realize how much that means but you will receive your rewards in other ways.

Good luck.

 

I think I'm on my way to that point with her mims. The other night I ran over to her house past midnight because I got sick of texting her, and she was telling me she was in terrible pain. We drove around for half an hour talking and I explained that she needed to know I was serious when I told her I'd do anything for her, drop anything I was doing and go to her side if it was helping to better her detoxification. (I thought I made that word up, but it passed spell check..)

I also explained that I care about her deeply, but that the only things I want, are for her to be happy, and healthy. I tell her, like I said.. That I'm proud of her, all the time. I don't know that she has anyone else like me at the moment. I feel like most of her friends are the selfish party buddies you talk about.

I think I'm getting through to her lately, the other day she told me she loved me. I knew what she meant, but it was strange to hear from her, because days before, she'd talked about a guy telling her that he loved her, and she explained to him that they'd not known each other long enough for that to be true.

I've known the girl for 8 or 9 years.. But really, have just gotten to know her in the last year. I have to tell you as well, your post brought tears to my eyes.

We make plans to hang out, usually to eat.. Sometimes the plans fall through, other times, we go have a good time. I never let it bother me when she cancels, it really doesn't bother me, and I don't want to put any guilt or stress on her. I always tell her that I'll be around another 40-50 years and I'm sure we'll hang out enough to cover this one time.

I think she's coming along well. I need to see her again though, that's the ultimate recharge for me. The instant she sits in my car, or I on her couch, I can see that she's doing well, rather than reading, or hearing it.

I don't care if she hates me. If she cleans up, and I can be there to help her, she can hate me with every breath she takes for the rest of her life. I'll take that over her telling me she loves me as she dies any day. There's a song by Sublime, it's called Pool Shark, it pretty much nails it for her at the moment, here are the lyrics. I use to love this song, now I love it while it scares me to death:

lying in my plasic bed
thinkin how things weren't so cool to me
my baby likes to shoot pool
i like lying naked in my bedroom
tying on the dinosaur
tonight it used to be so cool

now i've got the needle
and i can bleed but i can't breathe
take it away and i want more and more
one day i'm gonna lose the war

lying in my plasic bed
thinkin how things weren't so cool to me
my baby likes to shoot pool
i like lying naked in my bedroom

tying on the dinosaur
tonight it used to be so cool

now i've got the needle
and i can shake
but i can't breathe

take it away and but i want more and more
one day i'm gonna lose the war

 

Pax, your friend is sooo lucky to have you. I mean that. I also had a friend like Mimsy did, but the end result wasn't the same here. Yes, good friends are hard to find, but man, when you find them, you hang onto them. Sounds like you have been there for her when she needed you. Fantasic!

Mimsy, I am glad your friend got the help she needed. Some, just can't take that step back to see what they are doing to themselves.. I am so glad your friend did seek the help, and didn't resent you for your help. Kudos to you, you are also a good friend.

 

Sorry, just found this thread... :-o

:strong (Prayer Warrior) to commence! :major


To put a little levity in this:

I find your lack of faith disturbing...

http://www.yankeepotroast.org/image/forcechoke.jpg

 

Let's not high-jack Paxton's thread with jokes/debates on faith, please.

 

:-o Sorry. Please forgive me. I did write that it was just a little injection of humor. Didn't mean to offend or start anything.

Pax --- You're a good friend and I commend your efforts!

 

Trust me, I'd make it very clear if I was offended. I'd just rather not see comments like that grow until they derail the thread.

 

That was very kind of you. I'm not upset about the injection of humor, I don't like Star Wars at all though, never watched any of them the whole way through. I think it's because one was on when I was younger in the hospital getting a VP shunt for my hydrocephalus. LOL

Much respect Mimsy for stepping up like that. PapaDuke, thank you for your thoughts and prayers.

I've nothing to report today. I spoke with my friend very little yesterday, and as a result I couldn't sleep last night. I was up most of the night, and when I was sleeping, it was to have terrible dreams about her. I made it though, and I must have gotten enough rest because I feel good today.

I hope to see her this weekend. One day, this will all be over, and it'll be something she can look back on and feel good about. Something she can be proud of herself for.

Thanks again, to everyone who has read, and / or commented in here, it means the world... Being able to read your thoughts.

 

If by chance things take a downward turn, God forbid, don't take it as a failure on your part. I know that's kind of impossible to do but it will pull you into a dark place
My first husband was/is a drug addict. Has spent a majority of his life behind bars, which is wrong in itself being the main person he has harmed is himself.
Try as he did, all the tears that's been shed, the loss of absolutely everything life has to offer was weak compared to his addiction.

 

I would only take it as a failure to provide the solitude I promised myself I would. I realize that each of us are responsible for our own actions, even when those actions are governed by something from the outside, be it drugs, or anything else. I won't let myself get to a dark place because of this. For even at the first failure, there is still the ability to succeed.

She's not been in any real trouble that I know of, little things here and there. I don't even know that she's to a place where it's controlling every part of her life. She does function without drugs. At least for spans of half a day..

I have a problem with failure. I don't look at it negatively as some might. I accept readily that things aren't always going to work out as you imagine them. I also know what it's like to fail something, and then to success at it, I know that sometimes... No, most of the time, if you're facing a genuine challenge, you don't get it right on your first go round.

I'm having a fantastic day, I'm in high spirits, and ready to rock 'n roll. Today feels like I can handle anything. I'm going to celebrate my recent self-triumphs by leaving the office half a day early, and picking up some electronics that I've been putting off for a long time.

I don't have any complaints, really. I've said that I don't have any stress in my life, and aside from the trials of my friend, that still remains true. But it only really gets to me, when I let the bad thoughts of what could happen, outweigh the positive thoughts of what's happening right now.

I might not check into this thread throughout the weekend, because I won't want to type much from the PS3, but I'll be back Monday morning.

Thank you, once again for all the support. Even by reading, and not posting.. You're helping me to help my friend.

 

You have some well deserved time coming to you. Have a great week end :wave

 

Guilty of reading and not posting Sorry

I can offer a hand of support and positive thoughts

G

 

Well said Darlene! Only someone who has gone through that emotional wringer could ever express it so eloquently!:cry

@Pax, I don't know if this was mentioned already but perhaps a visit or two to an Al-Anon type group may help you to help your friend and at the same time not to get hurt too badly in the process. I've been on both sides of this coin and outside help is usually needed and welcomed. Good luck.

 

I was actually going to mention that. There are organizations and support groups for relatives and friends of addicts.... I've heard they're good places to "recharge".

 

Hey Pax, I do hope your friend can get into some sort of treatment/support. :strong :strong If she really wants to clean up, it will help her an awful lot. I have seen so much of that, the lies, the broken promises, it is just heartbreaking. She has got to want to clean up for herself, and no one else.

That is a very rough road, my friend. I am glad you are there for her, but do remember, she may say things, at this point, that she wants you to hear. Whether she knows it or even admits it, she NEEDS all the support she can get right now. :strong Not to be alone. Alone is not the answer. Those walls will close in on her.. I have seen it too. Too darn much.

 

I was out with my friend for a couple hours last night. Funny story... I was doing my normal routine, cash my check at the grocery store, deposit the money at the bank, and then off to Valley Dairy for some chili. Well, I swung by Valley Dairy and I didn't recognize any of the waitresses there, so rather than risk starting my week with a bad waitress, I decided to go to the Chinese buffet in town. I'd spoken with my friend earlier about having chili at Valley Dairy, but she was going to be busy through the time I normally do my thing, so I told her to get in touch with me when she was done. (she was getting the ball rolling on therapy, so that's great).

I finish my Chinese food, swing by Blockbuster and pick up "Sorority Row" on Blu-Ray and head out to my parents house with my house payment check for the month. I'm in the driveway, and my friend calls me "Do you want to go for chili still?" I agree and tell her to give me an hour. It was more like 35 minutes and I was on my way to her house. So I pick her up, we cruise the halls at the mall for a while and go in for chili... I was completely stuffed before that, from the Chinese food, but I didn't tell her, because I didn't want her to think differently about going to eat.. Plus, who can't always put down a bowl of chili?

She must have started cleaning up before she told me about it. She turned in an application that I got her, it had stuff about drug screening on it. She said she was confident that it didn't matter, she'd pass. She looked good last night, high spirits, and didn't talk about being as terribly ill as she'd been in the past few weeks.

She spent quite a bit of time on her couch I know, not going anywhere, and vomiting all the time. It could be that I caught her at the end of her cleaning up, and where she would have faltered in the past, I made her see it through. She always tells me I'm too nice to her, but I don't think that's true. I'm just a decent guy.

But I digress. I'm here to tell you, I understand why you don't see chili at a Chinese restaurant. My stomach was torn up last night, it was horrible, but I made it through. LOL

I'm not entirely sure she's out of the woods. I know it's got to be a lot harder than it's been since I've been hanging out with her, but it seems like she's doing everything in her power to kick the habits, and get her crap together. I'm very proud of her, I don't know if it's something I could do or not.

 

Nice to hear humor rather then stress, even though your poor stomach took a beating. Your halo keeps growing Pax

 

I’m a bit late on this Pax, but she knows you love her, love is tangible. The others are right Pax look after yourself so as you can look after her. Good thoughts friend, good thoughts.

 

Hi Pax, that sounds great. Yes, it does sound like she is on a roll. ( altho, so was your stomach! LOL) Sorry, couldn't resist that.. ( Chinese & Chili???? )

Therapy, super, because she is going to need all of it. Yes, sounds like you may have caught her right when she needed you the most!

:strong :strong :strong Continued best of luck to you both.

 

Great news Pax! :strong(Prayer Warrior) continues on...

 

First: OUCH!!! Zantac and Peptobismol seem to work really well when my stomach is upset.

Second, the fact your friend is even willing to consider therapy is a very good sign. It means she realizes this is going to be very difficult, and she is reaching out, trying to find allies that can help her win. It's a very difficult thing to do, to "surrender" and admit that you can't do it alone, and it's admirable of her. Now, all you got to do is be there for her in a few weeks when the therapy becomes genuinely painful, and make sure she won't back down from that pain and stops going.

And while you wait for that to happen, take good care of yourself, so you'll have the energy you need, when you need it.

 

I plan to be there as much as I can without taking a day bag when we have a dinner plan. lol I don't want to throw myself at her, or add stress at all. I just make it a point to remind her that my schedule is her schedule, and if she needs me, I'll be there, I am there.

I think things are winding down. I started this thread because on night I was scared to death that she might be gone, hurt, sick, dead, lost.. I didn't know, but I couldn't get in touch with her. I started thinking about how we had 0 mutual friends, and beyond an obituary, I might not ever know something happened to her.

I think I came to you looking for strength, ideas and comments about what was to come. Mission accomplished as far as I'm concerned. I didn't think this thread would get the legs that it did, and I'm grateful that it has. Threads like this are good I think.. Even for google.. Someone like me, might be out there today looking for answers on google, run into this thread and stick around.

I'll update if something happens, but I really hope, and feel like this is going to work out. I don't even think I've made her hate me, so that's a bonus.. Eventually, she'll be another annoying girl who doesn't return my texts all the time, and drive me up a wall.. but at least she'll be around to read them. If that's how it turns out, we both still win.

I'm joking though. I think she plans on moving out of the area in a year or so, but I think we're good with the friendship thing.. I might even try and change her mind, but I think she's chasing a boy.... LOL

We don't talk every day, but she's really, super open about everything. It makes me laugh, how honest she is. She's fantastic, and now I hope she'll soon be cleaned up.

Thanks again. My fingers are still crossed.

 

Hi Pax, that sounds real good. I am more convinced now, that she is determined to clean up, and good too. Yes, that is so good to hear. We don't know what the future holds, but best of luck to ya both!
Sounds like you two are :strong :strong :strong :strong :strong :strong :strong

 

The improvement you can see in your friend's lifestyle must be the fillip you both need, Paxton. This is due in no small part to your efforts. Just being able to see signs of your friend moving on from her problems is a huge step in the right direction. More wishes for a happy, healthy future.
Two great bits of news in one day (Sgt Tibbs' news is a welcome distraction, too) makes things a bit brighter after all the base human acts we have to endure on a daily basis in the media.
BTW Chinilli sounds like a remarkable concept. Chilli fu yung anyone?

 

.... I usually go for Chinese looking for Sum Yung Ting but I leave without it. LOL

Thanks JOTS

 

Nice to see some humor for a change! :-D You two crack me up, JOTS & Pax! roflmao roflmao roflmao

JOTS, I think it's the eyes! roflmao

 

Had my eyes opened last night. I was out at a friends house, and she called me from about 50 miles away crying. She'd traveled to her boyfriends family's house so she could spend a day visiting him in prison, and I guess a bunch of things happened around here, enough that she felt like she needed to get home ASAP and get packed to leave the area.

I'd told her in the past to call me, just like she did, but I never thought she really would. I had a hard time with the whole thing, if I was at home, I wouldn't have hesitated, but to be fair to the situation I was in, I told her I would come, but I couldn't come instantly, that I just got to my friends house, and I'd leave in an hour or so. She was a wreck though, told me she'd take the ride, but she'd be calling other people, trying to get home sooner.

I ended up talking about it with the girl whose house I was at, and I think she could see that I was torn up about it, she told me to go, she'd want to know I'd do it for her, and she'd likely do the same if it was a friend of hers. I called my friend back, and told her I was on my way in 5 minutes.

I had no idea where I was going, just the name of a town, and a general direction. It was the first time I'd taken my Cadillac outside of the immediate area, what a ride that thing is on the interstate.

When I picked her up, she was a little better, I made pretty darn good time. I had my cruise set above 70 for the duration of the trip down, and I stayed off of the interstate as long as I could on the way back, I wanted her to have all the time to talk that she needed.

She shot up again. It'd been days since yesterday, but it happened. She was a different person last night, she'd decided to cut her ties with everyone that she knew, and get out. She was worried she said the wrong things to the wrong people, and just wanted to get home, so she could leave. I wish she wouldn't. I know she'll probably be better where she's going, easier to stay away from everything, but I don't want distance with her, maybe I'm selfish, but I'm more readily available, foregoing a 50 mile drive.

We ended the night outside of her house, with a hug & I told her that I didn't care if she hated me, now or in the future, I'd always be ready to come for her, to help her, no matter what. I know she doesn't dislike me at all, but I didn't know how else to say that I cared more about her, than what feelings she or I had. She said it was odd that I barely knew her not long ago, and she knows she can call me before anyone she's known forever, and I'll do what I have to do. I explained that I didn't need to know her, I knew she was a good person, worthy of my friendship, and that I always do whatever I can for all of my friends.

I hope she's doing the right thing, but I'm here if she's not. I hope this all works out. I've never seen what drugs can look like. It was scary. I'm glad she called me. I hope she continues to.

Here's hoping for a better update next time.